The Mama in Me

The mama in me
Needs you to know something.
People love you for everything that you are.


Some days that's an easy thing to see and feel.
Today, maybe, you know this well.
Tomorrow it may feel like a whisper.
One day you may not think it's true.
But know it.
Despite your faults, strengths, differences, weaknesses.
God made you because He loves you and He believes in you.


The mama in me
knows how He feels.
Watching you smile fills Him up. Your happiness and love is all he wants for you.
Lean on Him. Pray. Ask. Love. Give. Pray some more.
And know that He made you,
And made other people in your life to surround you,
To love, and be loved.


When you know this Love, give it away.
Spread it to others. Live in it. Swim in it. Act on it.
Because it's the most beautiful thing in this world.
And there's enough of it for everyone.


The mama in me felt that I needed to write something in response to the bullying that has been effecting so many people. Rather than address the hatred and ignorance that the people who bully act from, I decided to address what is probably lacking in their life.
I believe that people who know real love, would not act in this way.
And although it seems fruitless, I pray it will stop.



Love & Him,

the mama in me

Near Perfection

By reading my blog, I realized, you may think that Rei Rei baby is perfect. That she does nothing wrong, ever. That she never even cries, she may just be smiling and laughing all day until she quietly drifts off to sleepland.


Well, let me tell you...you would be correct.



Okay, put away your daggers, I'm teasing. Of course she cries, she is a little bambina! And of course she has nights when she wakes at 4am. And times when she is not smiling during the day. And sometimes I have 5 things I need to get done in one day, and I get 1/2 of one thing done. And I just this week have gotten back to what I consider "normal" sleeping patterns.

So, yes, there are parts of each day that are not sunny and smiling.

But there is perfection in every day as well.


Motherhood is wonderful, difficult, fulfilling, amazing, overwhelming. And perfect.


The love that I feel for her, both in her perfection and her inherent imperfections as well, is how God is showing me how He loves me. For no other reason except that we are His children.

1 John 4:19 We love, because He first loved us.



He loves us. I love her. Imperfections and all.


Love in Imperfection,

DR Mama

Her Profile

Since the day, hour, minute this baby fell out of me (isn't that much more descriptive than saying "born"?) , my mama has always said the same thing.


"She has the prettiest profile in the world."

Not just once, she said it over and over. And to this day, for 4 months, she says it every time she sees her. It makes me smile. It will probably be one of those things that baby Rei will hear from her Mima all the time. On her wedding day, her Mima will touch her face, kiss her cheek, wipe away the river pouring from her face, and say:

"You have the prettiest profile I've ever seen, boopa. Now go pick your Mama up off the floor an tell her she needs to pull herself together."

And then I will move Reilly's things from her bedroom into our basement, because that is where she and her new husband will live. What? Uncle Jessie and Aunt Becky did it. It happens.

But anyway, where was I? Oh yes, this babyface.

It really is the prettiest profile I've ever seen. And she's had the same perfect profile since the day she was born.

You just want to kiss that mouth. And pinch those little cheeks. And make her laugh so she'll crinkle that little button nose.

I think when God invented the term "button nose", he had Reilly in mind. It just took Him this long to create the prettiest one.

Thank you, God, for our little button-nosed baby.

Oh, God...can you...kind of...un-invent the institute of marriage by the time Reilly gets older? Or... OH! I got it! Stop making boys! Okay, maybe that won't work...can you...okay, just make time go really really slowly, kay?
I love this time with our baby. I just love it. Have I said thank you lately? Thank you, God. We love ya millions.

Love & Buttons,

DR Mama